life update, stress, music
aw man, life is really busy all of a sudden. I’m still working at the symphony and doing some day work in people’s gardens, and then I went to Montreal on the weekend. also, I joined a SOCCER LEAGUE. for those of you that know me in real life (that’s most of you, haha) you probably already know that I find team sports awkward and vaguely intimidating. but I really like my team and everyone is really nice and silly and we aren’t very good so there isn’t really any pressure. hopefully they don’t mind my joining out of the blue but I think it is ok!
about that last entry, I realized afterward that maybe I should have made the question a little more clear. or maybe not, I don’t know, people still had interesting things to say. I’ve found that there is a kind of connection that happens between creative people that is rarer between people that have chosen a very different life. not that it’s superior or whatever, but certainly different. for awhile I was trying to find more of it, so I wanted to plug into a kind of artists community in my city at the time. but I’ve also had similar connections with people that don’t consider themselves “artists” per se, but they do have a kind of sensitivity and openness that seems to lend itself well to making art. so yeah. I’ve gotten used to calling these people “artists” in my head, even though they might not consider themselves creative. I guess I could just consider them sensitive and open people, but I’m also tempted to say that a creation that doesn’t have any sensitivity or feeling behind it (such as, say, the score to a life insurance commercial) isn’t really art. I realize that’s an awfully big statement to make, so I’m going to tentatively put it out there but I’m also prepared for someone to make a very thoughtful point to the contrary and change my mind. so that’s what I have to say about that.
I’ve been struggling a bit lately with stress about my current situation. There’s a lot of uncertainly in my life right now and I’ve been lacking a feeling of grounding and stability. Sometimes I thrive on that, but I think only if I also feel free to pick up and go wherever I like. Lately I’ve been feeling unstable and uncertain about the next couple of months but also feeling trapped by the financial stress of living in an apartment in the city. It’s been very draining. I think I’ve got it figured out now though. Fortunately it’s going to rain today so I’m not doing garden work, and instead I’m going to start kicking ass on the music front again. Finally!
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